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Interests: Skeleton in the closet. Snatching toys. Rock n Roll.
Masquerade, Burlesque, Freakshow, Alegria, Pastiche, Fard,Thigh high socks, Corsets, Mini Mittens, Furs, Velvet, Cigarettes.
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
1/7/2008
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| Bad and Good Day.
There are pain hit as so acute that we can remember every single details.
I can't forget morning day night. How each means to me or even mock me.
Yet when the day it was lifted the feeling etched in my heart too.
The Bad Day
Morning is scary and dreadful feeling overpowering me. Its like I woke up and a thick fog blinded me nothing seems to gonna make anything brighter. Not even spectacles going to help. I remembered what I had lost. Whatever left with me doesn't seem cheerful. When the suns start burning me relentlessly its the afternoon coming to bring me to second phase. The sweat didn't make me warmer or gaiety. I felt lonelier. The hateful feeling grow I can't change anything. Very mocking indeed. Its an dilemma going to sleep. I don't know how with a very bleak wish that things will change in the next few hours. Not wanting to waste a min or seconds. It may be a phone call or appearing at the doorstep. So I waited and stay up the night. Nothing happen and I see morning again.
Which shall then diagnose as INSOMNIA.
It take quite a while before I see.....
The Good Day
I wake up in the morning knowing someone is missing me and wondering about me. It make the pace to wash up increase by 2km/hr. Something to look forward. How you are sure that the air you are breathing is cleaner. I'm glad with what I have. The afternoon sun does not mock me anymore and it had change to keep me warm. Which I know night will be coming. I feel alive. I sleep like a baby where I just know there are pretty little things dancing around. I heard the I love you good night. It keep me safe and I join in the world.
Thanks for coming back.
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| I am not your pretty useful little thing here.
And my talks seem stupid and seemingly came from a narrow mind.
So much for not framing with grandiloquent pussy.
Maybe you can't change thing to certain extend to feel another way.
No matter how true the sky is blue you believe its black
Cos you are born at night.
Stop fooling that the picture paint will be reality
its work of fantasy and hope
which neither came even close to real.
Don't believe anyone or even yourself is as clean as sheet
everyone is playing Big 2.5
choosing the cards that have their own ultimate benefit
Don't you think sometime we are trying too hard to fool ourselves everything around us or this certain thing is alright? Which you know when there are certain times you are trying to get away from it pretend it doesn't matter as much.
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| I read Xing Ming. A chinese newspaper :)
And I came alot of interesting stuffs.
Gone paycash gone
A bangala worker just got his $500 pay and he was excited. So as he is working
on the top of the site building he counted his notes. A big wind swish and the
money flew off the building. He only found $100 back. I bet the others on the
ground floor took the $400.
OK I only mention one.
I hate it I am such a procrastinator. So much I want to do yet Im too lazy to start.
Like I really want to meet up some old friends but I never get my butt going and I wonder what we can do when I am always questioning how my money spent so fast.Money. I have been finding work first thing I am too choosy of this and that. Like the shortcuts are always my direction. No money have no shortcuts. I want a Pomeranian dog. I swear I want one. My lil sis can't sleep with me cos I smoke well. Maybe something I love to sleep near me or share my drool-filled bed and pillows. Finding a nice basket for my future dog. The problem is money. Again. Oh I hope my school won't kick me out.I am not an A star attendance student. Not even a C. Will I go to school if given one more chance? Hell yea I feel I am overage already and I don't see any security in my future with my current rate. Damn I always say this anyway. I want to redo my room. New colors new order for a new start.
Fuck New Year resolution. New Year Resolution=things I shall do=things I won't do. I put it under 'For a beautiful fox' all aspect beauty. Now who won't do anything for a prettier self? Yes it will be 'FOR A BEAUTIFUL FOX' thats mean if I continue procrastinating I will be grotesque.
I swear there is a jinx
lurking away in my joint
and make enemy with my brain.
I promise to cook 123 macaroni
but never had it done
maybe nothing wrong its the weather only.
I said I want to fight my fats
yet everyone laugh it off
even my family had made a sure-win bet.
Hey I love myself too
and do not want to force anything
I don't wan to do.
I want to be better
eye shall not see me as a fool
walk with head higher
Maybe I can work for beautiful.
-Beautiful XX
Remember when you want to do something and you are always procrastinating take it this way.
Life will be nicer. And you will be beautiful.
A trivia a day. armed rob from facebook app.
DO YOU KNOW... Farmers in England are required by law to provide their pigs with toys. | | |
| 'Go back to sleep' (Phone Call)
'Im thinking of you. my sleepy girlfriend. haha:)' (SMS)
'I bought you contact lens solution' (Face to Face)
'I miss you and I see the optical shop beside singapore pool'
'Lets go cartel. You want to buy contact lens?'
'Cos I love you and you are more interesting'
'You are so sweet sometimes can cry. no la shy la.'
KISS
----- National Day coming. Random interlude.-----
----- Cigarette holder. Even more Random-----
'Hello. I love you I miss you. Bye.'
Hey boyfriend you make my day.
The most romantic scenes in our head which all women, at least most of us will be something like
in Moulin Rouge. Lady and man wear pretty in the picture perfect setting with the right song.
That seldom happen unless you bring your radio along or just somehow a song play from a nearby
car or a person who did not pickup their phone with the blended ringtone music.
At the end of the day with all the right words being said naturally even the most unintended purpose one
for romantic backdrops flashing in our head plus the scene and silly smiles. It is something compare to
movie romance.
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